To judge ME!

No one talks

About the monsters

Strangers mock

Deep seeded cancers

Who are you

To cast the first stone

Misguided views

Tear me to the bone

My heart bleeds

Deep cuts to the wrists

I won't concede

I'll always resist

On my knees

Only for him to see

For HE is the one

To judge ME!

Timing

As darkness creeps inside

Where I find my solace

Dreams and Nightmares collide

No heart to bare witness

Rain tapping on the window

Shadows on the wall take form

Candle lit halls to follow

Where I can hide from the storm

His scratchy voice calls to me

My green eyes pleading for him

It's the real me that he sees

His actions are not done on whim

A new chapter to begin

Our fingertips lightly touch

Tracing outlines of our skin

Could my heart bare this much?

Begging him to not let go

Timing was our only crux

Whispers sounding like echoes

Feelings were always a flux

Time will foresee

On the surface it wasn't meant to be

Thoughts of you run deep

Our hearts longing to be free

We meet only in sleep

To feel you against me

Words carry on breath

No longer to be empty

Silence is our death

What would it be like

For this to be reality

Our passion to take flight

Only time will foresee

Sorrow's Rambling

Why is it the people that we love the most

Can cut the deepest wounds?
Make our heart feel such pain

That all we want to do is curl up in a ball

Some of them make promises and with little heart

Fall through at the last minute

Tears fall like huge rain drops and

Weeping sobs sound like thunder

Why is it the people that we love the most -

We can always forgive?

We forgive them in a short time but

for them, it's longer, if ever.

Why is it the people that we love most -

Can say such sweet and kind words about others

But barely mention the ones they love

without a negavitve denotation behind it?

These are my Sorrow's Ramblings

To my friend...

There you stand before me

With eyes full of pain

Such longing to be free

With tears falling like rain

No human affection

Building up walls

Trying for connection

A heart that stalls

No more questions

No more self doubt

Start with actions

Please don't checkout

All you need is a hand

Some kindness of strangers

Enough to withstand

A few rough encounters

Need to take the time

To chip at the stone

To hear heart's chime

Never again to be alone

This fight...

Allowed you to beat me
The misery you put me through
There is so much blood you see
Your words do not ring true

All things you have me believe
Another victim dies tonight
You are only here to deceive
Blood will shed during this fight

I will win, I will survive
I am no stranger to this
I know I am alive
It’s you I’ll dismiss

To be numb?

The words unspoken
The heart that is broken
All I can feel is pain
And there’s nothing to gain

Dreams are put on the shelf
Too afraid to be myself
A never ending night
All I can do is fight

Hush voices in the mind
Screaming echoes to find
Green eyes moist with tears
My body aching with fears

Would it mean any thing?
If I should say something
Of words that can not come
Or should we stay numb?

Sisters

Through our highs and lows
We can see it through
With beatings and blows
I will always love you

My sister to the end
Our life is just to begin

Through the ups and downs
We can see it through
Will be no more frowns
I will always love you

My sister to the end
Our life is just to begin

Trapped in my mind
We need to stay strong
Your words need to find
No matter when it’s wrong

My sister to the end
Our life is just to begin

Together we stand
Roads apart
Here’s my hand
A fresh start

I will always love you, my sister, my friend!

Mirror, Mirror on the wall

Mirror, Mirror on the wall
Where’s my castle
So many dreams on the shelf
Nothing but a big hassle
No more tears to be cried
Everything has been tried
Looking for all the reasons
To justify all the hurt inside
All hopes are on the stars
What a pleasant dream


Mirror, Mirror on the wall
Where's my black knight
Always putting up a fight
With eyes that melt
With heartache felt
Never letting go
What a pleasent dream


Mirror, Mirror on the wall
Can dreams come true?
Tortured through and through
Need to breath
Need to be free
Cut my wrists
Turns and Twists
What a pleasent dream

A Voice Within?

In the shadows of the dark night
So many fears
Beautiful green eyes filled up with tears


Has no idea what's in store
Standing so bold
In her mind, feeling so old


Another nightmare to come true
These wounds won't heal
Pain and darkness seems too real


Long last words whisper to me
Deafening sounds
A voice within slowly found


Peering through sliver of light
Nothing but shouts
Crawling through mud to get out

Time

As the years go by

I want to hide

Between the words

I can never find.

As the years go by

Confidence is no longer a word

But a feeling of

self worth

As the years go by

Darkness draws

and compforts me

As the years go by

It's now I understand

ME!